God is the source of all suffering

God is the source of all suffering

If you really want to get to know God, you must be willing to sacrifice all your self-created images and ideas about God into the fire of Love.

Let’s put God out the door for he is the source of all misery, was one of my articles I wrote and published several years ago. And yes, we’ve kicked God out. We turned our backs on God and sat down in his seat ourselves. We’ve taken matters into our own hands. And see the result.

We were raised with a stern punishing God. A God you should be afraid of. After all, he saw everything you did. As a Catholic you had to go to confession, and even though you couldn’t think what you had done wrong, you made up something on the spot to stop feeling guilty.

I remember I was sitting in church, where I never really felt at home, and raised my hand to my heart to say the words: ‘By my fault, by my great fault…‘ It was as if lightning had smashed. I woke up instantly and knew this has nothing to do with God.

I too threw God out and went to India in search of myself and a guru. Although many teachers came my way, I never found that one guru, but I did find myself. Ironic but true: after 7 months in India and Nepal I came back with God in my heart. No longer was I looking for the source of Love, the source I call God, outside of myself.

Once home, I was torn with homesickness and took a regression. I immediately saw myself at the Cauvery River in Tamil Nadu with Father Bede Griffith and realized that he had been an important teacher. Its simplicity became the inspiration for my being. This one-time regression gave me something else. I saw myself in hundreds of different lifetimes. Fake or no fake, it gave me insight that I am no better and therefore no worse than anyone else. From that moment I look at the world differently, at myself and the other, who is no longer another.

When I say we have to put God out of the door, I am of course talking about images and ideas that we have created. They have nothing, really nothing to do with God. Many still refuse to use the name God because it is said to be so tainted. For me personally that is no longer the case, so I use the name God or Love.

In our three dimensional illusionary reality, where the world of duality entered in order to make the invisible creation visible, we simply have to give names to all created things and forms in order to indicate them. Unfortunately, we have started to see one as good and the other as bad. We do not understand that the one in this visible manifestation cannot exist without the other. That the core of every manifestation is that same Love, that same Light from which everything arises and returns to. To get to know ourselves, to learn to see ourselves, we need polarity.

Churches have saddled us with enormous guilt. They portrayed mankind as sinful beings, who could only find redemption through penance and suffering as much as possible in order to eventually earn heaven in all humility. No wonder the churches are emptying. That just has to happen. That doesn’t mean you have to lump everything and everyone together. You do that exclusively from your dualistic reality. When you have outgrown it, you can see Love in everything.

Wake up call

Then you know that even what is happening now comes from that same Love and is nothing more or nothing less than a wake-up call to wake us up. In that sense it is also a blessing what is happening right now. It is an intense and painful process and difficult to handle for a Westerner who has fooling oneself that life can be makeable and that pain and suffering are not necessary. But without pain, without suffering there is no awakening, there is no joy. Though we create suffering itself through our attachment to pain, our attachment to suffering. That has to do with our attachment to our material reality that we want to maintain at all costs.

But believe me the way to that Deity that you are in essence and that you can experience and feel in your meditations and support with the sound of I Am or AUM, means nothing more and nothing less than to let go of all your attachments to that which you think you possess, to let go of what you think you are. I let go, I let God. I don’t bother with that anymore.

And YES that goes a long way. That means your partner is not your property. That means you can only speak of Love if you do not want to possess somebody. That your children are not your children, as Kahlil Gibran so beautifully puts it. You may take care of them for a while and then you have to give them back to themselves. Like a bird throws its young out of the nest when they can fly on their own, so we should put our children out of the door when they can stand on their own two feet. That is love. You have given them a foundation and fully trust that they will find their way in this life by trial and error. You can no longer protect them. You cannot prevent them from facing the necessary challenges. Even stronger, we grow from that. Mama’s children are forever wimps and never become independent and authentic fellow players in this game and certainly will not leave the herd to fulfill their divine purpose or become an authentic human being.

God is love. Love with capital letters. God is not an ogre on a cloud who punishes us for sneaking out of the sugar bowl. No, we humans have made that image of him. God is simply the manifestation of Nothing and Everything, of unconditional Love. Absolutely beyond our imagination. That Love was already there before creation came into existence and will still be there when creation has disappeared into nothingness. Because ultimately that is what is happening all the time and in all probability that is what is happening now. Our creation, our creation of reality, all that we take as true is slowly but surely crumbling and returning to the Source to Nothingness, the ALL.

It is hard for us to comprehend that everything that happens comes from that same love. That we are all players and opponents in the same world of illusions that looks so deceptively real from the world of the five senses.

But you didn’t have that doubt when you were a baby and still lived in eternity. Not even when you were a child and didn’t know the difference between right and wrong. You could get angry and beat that other person up, but five minutes later you were back in your authentic being and you were close friends. The concept of enemy and friend was foreign to you. You followed the natural flow of your being and didn’t put any labels on it.

However, you soon learned that there is such a thing as good and evil. That you had to earn love and that there were people you could trust and others you couldn’t. Around the age of seven you had lost your innate innocence and fitted neatly into the matrix of life here on earth. And you knew almost intuitively how to behave to be a loved and accepted child. And so you put your naturalness out the door and you forgot your true self. But do not be sad. This is all part of the game. The seeker arose. You went in search of that which was always inside of you. The Fountain of Love.

Everything we can discover about God has nothing to do with the outside. For that we have to close our senses and go the way inside. And to find God it is not only important that you give up all images and ideas about Him. More important than that is that you first discover who you are not. And believe me: everything that is visible, everything that has form, everything that is subject to change, that is not you. Oops. What are you then? Nothing. Nothing. Well, that is not acceptable for the ego that wants nothing more than to be something and constantly wants to elevate itself above others. And the ego is not so easily silenced. The ego will do anything to keep you from being yourself. After all, it is the death of the ego or your illusionary self. Then you are Love and Freedom and you live your own Truth.

No longer you represent anything in this society. Now I can tell you that this is not important either, but that is of no use to you. And all of society is cooperating to keep you in that matrix. In the role of victim. Keep feeding your pain body, because then you are a willing tool. Not in the hands of God but in society. Then they can do everything with you for which you have given them permission or not. Moreover, as a victim you get all the attention. We feed that with gusto. Therapies are being ripped out of the closet, backpacks invented just to make you feel you’re not good enough. That you need others to be a valued member of this society. And that is only possible if you follow the masses or the herd and you neatly frame yourself in this reality.

Now you may understand that God paid more attention to the prodigal son and the runaway sheep. Both manifestations of the rebel. The one who breaks away from the established order because he seeks truth. And that road is not for the faint of heart, that road is damn lonely at times. No wonder that most of us choose the path of least resistance and play for safety. Deep down we feel that call. But that one, or should I say that one that fell, can always be tucked away well. Just make sure you never have time to think about the meaning of life. Fill your agenda. Avoid the silence and fill all your desires immediately.


But then something suddenly happens that you had not planned. Your partner runs away, you get a serious illness. Your child is born with a disability or worse, you are told that a terrible plandemic has broken out. And that it really comes down to following the leaders of the people unconditionally. That we must all go to war to defeat this monster. Not for yourself, by the way, but for all those others who would otherwise endanger you. All this makes you follow all the precepts to the absurd without any visible protest, even if deep down you sometimes have your doubts. That you let your freedom be silenced and that you willingly hand over your body to the state. And you believe all this. Because the experts, the doctor, the pharmaceutical industry, the world leaders and even the mainstream media are not saying anything but this. And those are the scientists, the experts. They apparently know you, your dreams and feelings and your body better than you do.

And as annoying as it may be, the time has passed when we can blame God. Because we have already thrown them out the door.

Om Shanti – May we live in Peace

Sardinia, 4th of December 2021



The moment we left paradise we not only lost our wings, we became further and further removed from our true essence. The current situation in the world forces us to make a choice. Either we hide our heads in the sand and blindly follow the guidelines that slowly but surely rob us of our freedom, or we turn inward and find the gateway to wholeness and true freedom.  In short, it is time for an inner reset.

Most of you don’t know that I had absolutely no intention to cross the borders four months ago, unprepared and with a mini camper. As always, I listened to my inner voice and began to clean up our house thoroughly.  “He my dear it looks like we’re going to leave for a long period,” I said to Giri.  And here we are now in Portugal. Almost three months on the road  without a specific goal. I let myself be led by my inner guidance as I have been doing always…


Last week I woke up in our campervan after a dream that told me that I had to read again my book ‘Masterbeyond death’. As my readers know, my texts from years ago are still relevant in the here and in the now.

This gem was self-published. Together with other publishers we attempted to curb the power structure of our Centrale Bookhouse and Bol.com. Unfortunately, these structures within the book world are comparable to the power of multinationals and the pharmaceutical industry.  It is fighting a losing battle. But slowly but surely the world is changing course. The moment the water is not only up to the lips, but even higher, we begin to realize that all the interplay in the world has nothing to do with health, but that we are slowly but surely being robbed of  our freedom until we have become controllable minicomputers…


The booklet ‘Mastery Beyond Death’ could not make a real breakthrough. In our makeable society we scrupulously avoid the subject of death. Now we are confronted with it every day. Although this has little to do with the virus, on the contrary. The measures, but especially the fear that has been systematically sown and since that 9/11 in the form of hatred against Muslims and terrorists has been firmly and practically ineradicably planted in our souls, has become so deeply rooted in our human hearts over the past one and a half year that we ostensibly willing to follow all measures, even if we cannot reconcile them in any way…

September 11, 2001

I remember as if it was yesterday that I gave a lecture on that particular September 11th about my latest book: Love is ‘All That Is’. I did not knew what happened that day when the people trickled in, but soon I was aware.  People were angry: what was on my mind to talk about Love? They were emotional and above all very scared. It had nothing to do with compassion for the victims. No, they were suddenly aware of their own vulnerability, their own mortality…

This fruitful evening stimulated me to write a peace message that same night. Thanks to the Internet phenomenon, it was widely disseminated and broadcast by Canadian radio. The message also ended up on the desk of the Prime Minister President and the Vice President in the USA.  The answer was clear: Let the Dutch never forget what America did for us in World War II…

My Peace message

“We are no doubt stunned by what happened in the States yesterday. Once again we become aware of our vulnerability. The fear literally takes our breath away. The earthquake in Gujarat in India, which killed 20,000 people is far away for us, but the unbeatable USA does brings our mortality very closeby. We start to realize that the foundations of our social illusion are very fragile.  We believe that life is manufactable and that we can insure ourselves against all disasters, but there is no insurance that guarantees us the physical right to exist.

Let’s look at USA with love and compassion.  Let’s highlight the victims, but don’t forget the perpetrators either. Let us not call for retribution, but for forgiveness.

We have replaced respect for Life with respect for matter. From this respect, love for all living things has turned into deadly fear. Deep down we know that we have forgotten who we really are: divine immortal beings, creators of our own reality.

When my reality is peace, then I create peace within myself. Then I work as a spiritual warrior to face, feel, live and transform all fear in myself into Love.  Then I no longer exclude anything, but I know that everything that is happening in the world right now is part of me.

I don’t have the arrogance to make the world a better place. I strive to improve my own world, myself. I choose to live my own truth and no longer hide myself behind social structures born of fear and not of love.

As Mandela said in his speech written by Marianne Williamson:

‘We were born to reveal the glory of God present in each of us. We don’t serve the world by keeping ourselves small.  We serve the world by letting shine our inner light. In doing so, we give others the opportunity to do the same. When we free ourselves from our deepest fear, the fear of death, just our proximity will set others free’.

We can do our part to solve the war by ending the war within ourselves.  We end apartheid by tearing down our own inner walls built to hide ourselves behind.

I do not wish to retaliate, I am willing to forgive. I forgive myself for all the mistakes I made in the past. These mistakes have polished me into an open and loving person with room for everyone who is different, everyone who thinks differently.  This is no longer threatening, it gives color to my life. I forgive myself and others in the knowledge that forgiveness will open our hearts to universal brotherhood.

Every moment we choose which pole we want to connect to, with fear or with trust, with hate or with love.  Mandela used his time in prison to transform hate into love. He used the energy of hate to grow the seed of love.  I challenge myself, I challenge you to do the same.

I decide today to be Love and to live Love. To be a living example of love in all simplicity. I invite you to do the same. In doing so, we lay a solid foundation for a new world in which Love will triumph. A world in which our children and children’s children can freely discover and develop themselves into humane beings. A world in which competition makes way for support.  A world where our only weapons will be Love and respect for Life…”


A few days later, on Wednesday the 17th of September, I saw the following ‘image’ during my meditation. I saw that America was heartbroken by the attack. You could compare this to a physical heart attack.  People who survive a heart attack are usually more ‘open’ afterwards.  The heart attack has literally helped them to release certain blockages. Symbolically you could say that USA, and with the  USA the whole western world, may open their ‘hearts’ to learn to listen candidly to our brothers and sisters from other cultures and other faiths: the Christ consciousness awakens in human.

Later that day I finally got around to sculpting again.  Under my hands the stone suddenly began to take shape. I held my breath when I saw what was going to happen. A Phoenix was born: America rises from its ashes…

There is no certainty but the ‘certainty’ of uncertainty: everything is in constant motion and moves in a certain order.  When we dare to let go of our fear, we can face that no one on this earthly plane can guarantee our safety. There is only one way to experience safety and that is the inner way.  The moment we dare to recognize that we are nothing on our own, we open the gate to inner peace…

Here and now

Little did we know that all this was a taster to get us ready for the great reset.  Those preparations had been going on for a long time. Not everyone remembers the first time clock. Solidarity between employer and employee was reduced to an elusive emotion. People became increasingly alienated from themselves and thus from the other. Small-scale projects, such as post offices, were merged.  Small congregations followed. Efficiency took the place of interpersonal contact. The monetary system, the multinational, the banks and ultimately the 1 percent at the top, were given absolute power. Homes became unaffordable and people degenerated more and more to the caliber of modern slavery. For the appearance of safety and security, we handed over our responsibility: to our employers and to the state…

Pros or cons

And now we have all made our bed and we must lie in it. We no longer talk about black and white and gender stuff, but about pros or cons. Not only our safety is on the street, but also our privacy, our intimacy, our authenticity. The moment the government reduced us to machines and took ownership of our lives and our bodies, by forcing us to donate our organs and have ourselves ‘gen-shot’, we have gone one station too far. Getting out is no longer an option. But as I said in my preface: When the water is at our lips, it is time to turn inward and regain our inner strength. Together we are strong. Stand up and don’t let yourself be divided into pro or con, vaccinated or not vaccinated. The heart of the true human beats in each of us.

Global Citizens

Let’s sacrifice our little self – or ego – in the fire of Love. Let’s realize that we are essentially one, even if you don’t see it immediately on the outside. Let’s realize that everything we create, consciously or unconsciously, has an effect on the total society, the whole world order.

Let’s honesty look in the mirror and admit that we can’t go back to where we came from. With our gigantic greed we have exploited Mother Earth, who carries us and nourishes and supports our physical reality, to the bone. We have forgotten that we cannot take with impunity without giving back. We have forgotten that sharing is the engine of a loving human heart.

Let’s face the fact that the whole visible world has become one big lie, one big projection. That there is nothing we think we see that exists outside ourselves. Afraid of terrorism? Grab the terrorist inside of you by the horns. Embrace lovingly whatever you not dare to face within yourself so that it can transform into wholeness.  And YES it is absolutely true. Whatever we think of, our bodies will die, sooner or later. But if we dare to feel and embrace the fear of death, we can at least live this short time here on earth at the fullest. Then we no longer have to hide ourselves under a bushel, visibly afraid to breathe, but proudly we will present ourselves in full glory.

We don’t know what will happen tomorrow, but what I do know is that I have to make the best I can of this moment, sitting here in our campervan behind my computer. That I may show myself as I have always shown myself in this time: without fear of being plugged out. Honestly, truthful and divine.

We can only turn this lie around by ceasing to participate. By stopping blaming others and putting the responsibility for our own Life and our own bodys where it belongs: on our own shoulders. In the end, we only came to Earth with one mission. To remember who we are: to wake up. That is only possible in the quiet space of our Heart. At that moment we become truly immortal. We let go of the role of victim and become masters. We rise to mastery, Mastery beyond death…

In times of disaster, in times of war, we can no longer put things off in front of us and hide our authenticity. It’s high time for an inner reset…

In loving connection,

Mastery beyond Death

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A wonderful world

A wonderful world

The revolution in our society will not take place from science, politics and/or pharmaceutical industry. It can only happen through a  revolution in the consciousness of Humanity.
We become aware that separateness only exist in our mind. We take full responsibility for what we essentially are. No longer we will point to a culprit outside of us. In short, we know that we create our own reality and let go off our role of being a victim

En route

Two months ago I felt a strong impulse to cross borders with our camper to Greece. Angels have guided us until this day.  We were always in the right place at the right time and have been in the magical Basque Country for about fourteen days now. We follow the flow called Love or Life and are grateful for every moment. The rain, the disorder and everything that makes life worthly to breath it in at the fullest.  Here you find my last report…


I do my exercises in the immense garden of the monastery on top of a hill.  I smile. What a wonderful world


Seven days ago we left Sunbilla with a little pain in my heart. We left the Basque interior and drove to the coast. Tourism literally took my breath away…


We decided to leave the coast and find a place to spend the night before dark. And so we slept at a farmhouse and had an interesting discussion with a Frenchman about the new religion of Science I should believe in. To be honest, I prefer to stick to my own reality…


We pulled up as it got light and saw that we were exactly where we wanted to be. In the quiet Basque villages where there is nothing to do for the spoiled tourist.  Where the camina del Norte runs through and where we camp for free on the roof of the world: the parking lot in front of the Trappist Monastery.  There where Brother Francis imperturbably greets every guest with a heartfelt embrace…

Art studio

On the way we pass an Art studio with African art.  Ofcourse, we cannot get around that.  And so we are cuddling with the radiant Amadu from Africa, his Basque wife Anu and baby Abu who carries the best of both cultures.

‘Anu why are you wearing a mask?’ I ask. She is visibly startled and immediately takes it off.  ‘Your culture is a symbol of Freedom.  That is what you are. That is what you radiate. You are not going to hide that behind a mask, are you…’


All four of us feel deey touched. There is still an English book in the car and two T Shirts ‘One Love – One Tribe’.  They are thrilled with it…


Knowing that distance and pandemics only exist in people’s minds but do not represent any Reality when you dare to live your own truth, we continue our way to the top of the hill.

Bodhi tree

We meditate two times a day under the Bodhi tree.  Wash ourselves with a bucket and our clothes by hand. We enjoy the activities in the weekend and the silences afterwards. The many exotic butterflies, the orchestra of countless birds, the wonderful nights with its beautiful starry skies.

Breath is Life

No longer we have to walk the camino.  We already did that. But there are beautiful walks in this wonderful pure nature. I smell more, I see more, I feel more…

Here you feel God’s breath in everything…

From Heart to Heart,

Be still and know

Be still and know

I am the hole in the flute through which the breath of Christ is moving. Listen to this music…
– Hafiz – Sufi

During a 21-day period of silence, in which my only food was my garden, the birds and the unseen world, my physical vehicle failed on many fronts. While the body had a really hard time, I dwelt in peace in the boundless space of my heart. Primal trust, surrender and the process of alchemy pushed the boundaries between death and life. Literally and figuratively, I am getting lighter…

From my diary*

‘…We are pure consciousness. Boundless, divine space. Silence. We are Nothing. We are God. By denying who we are, what we are, we create human-unworthy situations. It is divine intervention to intervene in visible reality. As painful as it is to see what we do to ourselves, how we deny and destroy ourselves, behind that outer destruction Awareness is still at work. Even though it may seem far away, this is the perfect time to realize who we really are. Now is the time to wake up and to stop giving our responsibility out of hands to anyone, to anything. To God, to politics, to the pharmaceutical industry, to our leaders…’.

‘…We are, I am, the divine power that animates everything. The moment I take full responsibility for that and don’t wait for it to reveal itself, I create pure divine vibrations in my inner world and let them flow out into the outer world so that others have the possibility to pick them up and awaken…’.

‘…We are not meant to deny what is. We are meant to no longer connect with that which is. By denying we create that what is. By being awake, seeing what is and no longer connecting ourselves to it, we give what has been created the opportunity to fall apart. Everything that arises perishes. Everything that is created is eventually doomed. Every material form disintegrates. What remains is pure Consciousness. And that is what I am. That is what you are. That is what we are…’.Paradise

The world would instantly become the paradise the Creator intended it to be, if people realized right now who they really are. No one, absolutely no one, will be able to support the lie that reigns, once all the lies in our inner world have been resolved.


By transforming my inner world, I create my own reality and transform the world outside me. The step to freedom is an inner step. The only weapon on my path is Love. By breaking down myself, all my belief systems and attachments to the bone, I am closer to the truth than ever. Life is a mystery. I still exist in this physical manifestation to be a Beacon of Light for others during this transforming times.


In this state of being there is no need to demonstrate. Have the guts to look honestly in your own mirror. Embrace what you essentially are and dare to stand for it, without analyzing or judging. When we realize that time and space essentially do not exist, we can be everywhere without a physical presence and nonviolently support what we wish to support. In silent connection with All That Is.

Everything that could be said about the current situation has already been said. Everyone creates their own reality. Everyone is waking up at the right time. I cannot add anything to that or change this.

Unity in diversity

Living in Oneness means that our little self is no longer central. Living in Oneness means pushing boundaries and opening ourselves to renewal. Living in Oneness means not denying the dark, but not accusing anyone. Because no one is to blame. It is ignorance, no more, no less. Living in Oneness means being in connection with everything and everyone. When we feel fully responsible for who we are, for who I am, I am a signpost for others without seemingly to do anything.

Art of living

In times of deep darkness, there are many unseen forces in the universe who are willing to support our transformation. You can experience them in the quiet space of your heart. This is the perfect time to wake up This is the time to choose momentary happiness, or to realize that the visible reality is no more and no less than an illusion. It is true art of living to die before you die. Sacrifice the ego in the fire of Love so it can leave without losing face. At that moment we leave the world of fear and there is no longer anything to fear. You can stand up in full glory, in all eternity, for your own truth, for your own divinity…

Be still and know…

  • I recorded the three quotes ‘From my diary’ during this period…
Birth of a new time

Birth of a new time

We are on the eve of a New Time. The great upheaval, of which the ancient and sages have already spoken, is taking place right now. Before that revolution actually can happen, a major purge must take place. After all, we cannot build a new world on old foundations…

Every change starts with the individual. The ego will not surrender without fight. It will do everything to preserve the old and familiar. There is no surrender without struggle.

Everything we have once accepted for truth turns out to be nothing more and nothing less than an illusion.

Chaos precedes any transformation. Old structures -in and outside ourselves- collapse. A new order can only emerge from chaos. There is nothing we can cling to anymore. Nothing to hide behind. We must show our true face. A mask will not help. In short, fleeing is no longer possible.

We can continue to blame others for our misery. We can point our finger at officials, governments and world leaders. But that won’t help us. The solution is us, humanity. We have all created this together. The change starts the moment we turn inside and take responsibility for it.

Don’t let fear frighten you. Feel compassion for all the relief workers, pioneers, rebels, and doctors on the front lines who feel threatened to their existence. Like a dear friend, doctor in France who, after an enormous internal struggle, decided not to participate in the vaccination campaign. A campaign that is dictated letter by letter and which doctors have to follow indiscriminately…


She is busier than ever. Not with the virus, but with the consequences of the inhumane measures. According to her and other experts, there is no vaccine that can protect you from a virus. And it is crazy that people here in the Netherlands stand in line for a vaccine that is banned in America because it is still in the development phase until the end of 2023.

And that while every virologist knows that viruses have always been there. They are our buddies in acquiring a powerful immune system. Nevertheless, doctors are suspended for refusing to wear masks in their practice. If that is not enough, they get the health inspection on their door and they are forced to work in the prescribed manner or to resign from office. How far have we gone that we get so brainwashed that we even start to believe that 2 plus 2 is five. Is this the world we want to leave behind for our children and grandchildren?

When we are willing to embrace our fear and let go of our attachments to my body, my family, my property, my religion, my culture, and so on, we can actually make the transition. A transition to another dimension where control and head may make way for heart and soul: for connection and trust.

The more we bond with the world of forms, the more we will suffer. We will continue to fight tooth and nail against the change that is now taking place. We become robots that voluntarily conform to the regime, the new world order.

Originate and decay

Everything that has ever taken form is doomed to die, to dissolve again into the invisible world: the boundless space from which all forms arise. This also applies to our physical body. The moment we are born, or take form in this visible reality, we are doomed to die. At least, our visible form. That is not a disaster, on the contrary, it is our true nature, our soul destination, our home…

Beyond the world of forms, beyond fear is the formless I AM. Pure consciousness, that what I really AM. That which was before creation, that which is and always will be, that which we call God, Universe, Love or whatever. We are the heart of creation. We are that spark of God, that spark of Light and all of us together encompass the entire universe.

How is it possible that we have degenerated our Self into such insignificant beings? Well, that has everything to do with forgetting our origins. With the negation of the feminine power, with our identification with matter, or form, and the masculine energy that we use to maintain the outer form at all costs.

Heaven on earth

Only in the dimension of Being – of wholeness – we can truly exist. That is heaven on earth. There is Peace, there is Love, there is Truth, there is the Power of Being. There is true Life, Joy and Eternity…

Let us be the Light,

Grateful to be on Earth at this challenging but exciting time, where we can make the greatest transformation ever. It is up to you and me what the New World will look like…

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A new world

A new world

After a period of voluntary retreat, I suddenly find myself behind the computer. It’s time to shape a new world. It’s time to take our rightful place in the universe.

The ego

Since we turned our back to God, slowly but surely, we lost the connection with Mother Nature, with our true nature. Greed became our new religion. We associated ourselves more and more with the outside. We derived our identities from status, from possession, and if this was not sufficient enough from a conviction or belief system. In short, the ego wants to be seen and has an insatiable hunger to distinguish itself.

The media and advertising are constantly feeding this concept. How do you sell something no one really need? Give the consumer the feeling that the product in question adds something to their identity. Once purchased, soon the greed for more starts to resurface…

After the Second World War, life became increasingly manageable. We created a tomorrow, took care of the future, and gave ourselves a sense of false security. Everything was divided into boxes, risks were removed. What science could not prove was referred to the land of fables. We learned we had to fight and went on war against disease, terrorism and other imaginary enemies, we had created ourselves. Despite our fight against cancer, there has never been so much cancer. This includes terrorism and everything we thought we needed to get under control.

Did you know that incorrect medication and vaccination is the third cause of death after cardiovascular disease and cancer?


With this carefully prepared pandemic, we are beginning to realize that our control has literally been taken off our hands. It is the fault of those in power: the WHO, the world governments and the multinationals. Imagine that we dare to admit that we are not in the least victims and that we have all created this together. Then there is work to be done!

It has apparently never occurred to the masses that our government’s policies would stand no chance if the people refuse to follow up unreasonable and absurd measures. And of course, those in power did it very smartly. We become, or rather, we let the mass media brainwash us 24 hours a day and blindly believe what they give out. If we think otherwise, it is referred to the realm of conspiracies.

Not only have we failed ourselves, we have also referred our elderly and infirm to the realm of senility by wanting to decide about their lives and their well-being.

Let me be clear. We cannot go back to the old ‘normal’ because that was abnormal in every way. It is too crazy that a small minority, at the expense of the great majority, is enriching themselves, exploiting and plundering the earth. If we are willing to share, there is abundance for everyone…

In exchange for certain privileges and the appearance of security, we have gradually relinquished our responsibilities. This got so serious that we couldn’t even think independently anymore. Now we are losing our acquired freedoms. Slowly but surely our eyes are starting to open. However, the masses are terrified and entangled in the visible play of illusions.


As long as we say I, me and mine, as long as we identify ourselves with what we have and not what we are, we will fight wars, oppress others and let ourselves be manipulated and vaccinated out of laziness. Fear, guilt and a sense of duty are the perfect ingredients to keep the people under control…

We have created a culture of victims and vulnerable ones. We protect the weak and punish those who make it visible. A natural approach would be to reinforce the weak. Real life is simply too heavy for the faint of heart.

We also do that in medicine. Since we are no longer allowed to be ill, we weaken our immune system with medication and vaccination. We may be getting older, but the quality of life leaves a lot to be desired.
Ever met a healthy person? You can recognize a healthy person by his vitality, the inner joy he radiates. He can have all kinds of ailments, but the light of love shines through him. His smile touches many hearts.


To live is to have guts. Celebrating life means pushing boundaries. Living is daring to take risks. Your body becomes strong and healthy when it survives and transforms diseases and resistance. Herbs, homeopathy and acupuncture naturally strengthen our immune system and support the process of becoming truly healthy.

On an emotional and spiritual level, these are attributes such as ayahuasca, iboga etc. A fantastic way to bring out your true potential by making hell, which masks the gate to heaven, visible in yourself. After all, without the dark there is no light.

In that sense this way cannot be compared with most forms of therapy which usually aim to make you a full member of the herd. And so, our uniqueness became increasingly more embedded. However, you turn or turn it, it is not the mass that change the world, but the loner who has the guts to turn his back on the flock and wakes up…

Life is a gift

In this day and age when it is no longer possible to flee, we can do two things. Or we take the role of victim and point accusatively at others. Or we stop doing that and start to face our fears and to feel them step by step. We put the TV off and start investigate ourselves.

Now we have the time to embrace ourselves and to feel how our life-energy is moving in and through us in a playful way. We start to feel who we really are. We are not material beings. We are energy, awareness, mystery, a miracle. We cannot unravel the mystery, so just let the miracle be the miracle. Do not try to know the unknowable by giving it a scientific framework. That is absolutely impossible.

What we are is nothing – is emptiness – is boundless space – is silence. And in that quiet space there is no room for fear. There is no longer the sense of my house, my wife and my car. There is only Being and this one moment. Fear arises when you live in the future and are afraid of losing something you never owned. We do not know what the future will look like. That is constantly changing and has everything to do with this present moment…


For me there is no fear. For me there is no distance. Since I’ve sensed death, there’s no reason to be afraid. I can still see myself lying in bed in a mud-brick house in South Africa with a young mother in my arms who died of AIDS. I see toddlers dying in the AIDS clinic in Boksburg. “If there is a God then this isn’t the way it should be,” I thought. Then I was allowed to see what really happened. That which we essentially are is eternal and unchangeable and can never die…

Life is giving and taking. Life is a struggle. Life is dying in every moment and being born again. A true spiritual being is fighting that battle within himself. A true person is willing to face his own imperfection. To face it is the end of imperfection.

Eternity comes into view behind all apparent duality. Then we stop wanting to be something or someone that we are not. Then the soul will shine more and more through our body. We become more or less transparent. We literally become Beacons of Light spreading joy without doing anything. Because as long as we still think we have to do something, we are not yet in the dimension of Being.

Fleeing is no longer possible

It is the right time to shape the new world. Time to take our rightful place in the universe. That has nothing to do with the outside. Freedom is an inner state of being. No one can limit our true essence. They can throw us in jail. They can force us to get ourselves vaccinated. They can kill our body, our temporary shell. But what we truly are is eternal and immortal and can no longer be denied…

In the Light of Love
Yasmin – I am U


In the Light of Love

In the Light of Love

  1. Dear you,

‘Love your enemies. They will show you the way to heaven…’

When we start to recognize and embrace our own darkness, we do not have to fear it anymore and we will not project it any longer onto others.
We embrace All that Is.
Our healing and the healing of Mother Earth will make a start.

No longer it is necessary to hide our divine face behind masks.
Our guilt feeling changes into compassion,
Fear into Love,
Death into Life.
We are losing the need to judge.
We anchor ourselves into our Earth Mother and raise our consciousness to Heaven.

Gratitude and ecstasy will fill our being.
We leave behind lives and lives of slavery.
Free inside, we start to remember who we essentially are.
We are coming home in the deep waters of our soul and in the infinite silence of our true Self.

We melt together into one body and take off our visible and invisible masks.
We climb the ladder of our endless and immortal being.
Rooted in the heart of our Earthly Mother we are no longer from the earth,
we unfold even more deeper depths, more silent silence, and more empty emptiness
in the invisible space inside our heart…

In the Light of Love ❤️

In the knowing that we are going true an tremendous transforming time, with all the love in my heart I embrace you and I wish you a blessed Christmas and a winged start in the New Year.


All life matters

All life matters

As long as we are not whole inside, we will look for an enemy in the outside world. As long as we are accusing someone else, we are not free from our inner pain. Hating causes inner suffering and alienates us from ourselves.

Suddenly racism is a hot topic. Worldwide huge demonstrations are taken place. Police and ME are not interfering. It suits the rulers well. It takes the attention away from the real problem. Be sure that people start to hate each other and you have created the perfect climate to push through the controversial emergency law…

Divide and rule

What are we doing now we are in a global crisis that affects all of us? After years of discussions about our black Piet tradition, the murder of a black man in the USA is being used to prove that discrimination still exists. We do not understand that divide and rule is the method that leaders nowadays use to set us up against one another, so that our attention is diverted from that what really happens.

It is important to recognize what we have done in the past. We cannot be proud of that. Not the Dutch, not the Moors, not the Americans, not the Africans with their tribal wars, not the Arabs, or you name it.

The moment we can forgive ourselves, we can forgive others. No longer do we have to feel guilty and we can draw a line under the past. Hand in hand and fully in the present, we can go for what concerns us all: our democracy, our blood-fought freedom…

Challenges polish our soul

We are born as boundless free beings in that special place where we can learn the lessons our soul has chosen to become a better and more sincere person. The path we walk is one of trial and error: of challenges and desires, of division and connection. The goal is no more and no less than to transcend our ego so we feel in every way one with ALL that lives. We are all brothers and sisters. At the end, we can no longer speak about I and you, but only about us.

It does not matter where we are born. Innocence, freedom and wholeness are the birthright of every human. Rather than honoring our children for their wholeness, we are gradually taking everything away from them that reminds them of heaven, totality and perfection. Slowly but surely we are framed in a dualistic world of good and evil. Depending on where we were born, our color or our origin becomes superior…

Discrimination is timeless

Whites have also been trafficked as slaves. I dare to say that my father’s situation was no more and no less than slavery. After my parents’ premature death, I struggled tremendously with my health and my past. I surfaced and learned the power of forgiveness. On behold I learned to embrace myself and discovered the power of gratitude. The result was that I could embrace everything and everyone. Every soul on earth is longing to be recognized and to be known.

Did you think it was a coincidence that you were born in a black, white or blue body? Did you think it was a coincidence that you are the daughter of a king or the son of a drug dealer? Of course not. Your soul chose the circumstances to get to know yourself in all depth. As a child, you do not know discrimination. You learn this during your upbringing. That has little or nothing to do with being white or black.

Recognition is freeing us

It is the time for us white ones to recognize that we have dominated the world long enough. Do not  think it will be better if Africa takes over that role. When people gain power and are not ready for it internally (and who even is that far?), even the most honest will collapse.

Every human discriminates

I was against rich people: they had an easy life in my eyes. Until I  real poverty in India and realized I was cherishing my past. In this way I could be against the outside world and I did not have to take responsibility for my inner world. This insight gave me the opportunity to remain an eternal victim or to become a master of my own life. I chose for the latter.

I corresponded with a black man on deathrow in Texas. When they killed him, a part of myself died. I loved him unconditionally and did not judge what he did. Later I visited Aaron, another beautiful soul, on deathrow in USA. I was with him every day for a week – behind glass. I loved him and he loved me. However, I did not want to marry him…

It is a challenge to be in the world and to share your skills with others, without belonging to the world…

The art of living

We did not come to the earth to escape our earthly reality. Nor do we need to be attached to suffering to earn Valhalla. We are on earth to perfect ourselves in every way. Since I woke up, I can embrace every experience. There are no good and no bad experiences. Every experience is food for our soul. Life is a gift.

It is a pity that we link wealth to money, status and power.

By embracing myself, I learned to recognize and to embrace others in their true essence. I like people. My friends are in all colors of the rainbow. I honor my origins and feel at home with the scum in our society: the homeless person, the beach boy, the refugee, the person in prison and so on. When we have nothing to lose, when there is no past and no future, we are close to the Source and we learn the real art of Life.

Everything we fight is growing

By fighting against disease, we are increasingly creating a sick body and a sick society. By fighting discrimination, we create more and more division. By living through a disease, we not only honor our immune system, we become healthy and strong. We should not protect the weak ones, but challenge them to stand in their own strength. We should not demonstrate against discrimination, If we would like to demonstrate we should demonstrate for freedom. That does not divide us but connects us and that is true Love…


By being roused by the government and its affiliated media, we are systematically brainwashed to hate and distrust each other since September 11, 2001. Believe me, not only in the rich west. Christians hate Muslims, blacks hate whites, the rich hate the poor and vice versa. Of course, that suits our rulers well.

The government is a reflection of ourselves. It makes no sense to point our finger. Honesty commands us to look inside and accept that we have completely given away our responsibility. Out of laziness, we let our lives be determined by the pharmaceutical industry, the government, the media, and so on. If that is not slavery. If working on conveyor belts with time clocks is not slavery…

Tame sheep

It is time for us to stop polarizing. We weaken our position and are only helping those in power. By systematically giving us a little more freedom, we let ourselves be dazzled and be metaphorically lead to slaughter like tame sheep. At the end, we are even willing to accept that emergency law and even the mandatory vaccination. For the sake of convenience, we are overlooking that this is not only the end of our freedom, but also of our democracy.

The art of not knowing

To be clear, we cannot go back to the past. It is time we realized that we have exploited not only each other, but also our earthly mother. It is time for a new world order, a new morality that has nothing to do with the new normal.

Of course, we do not yet know how we will color this in. First, we have to learn to embrace the art of not knowing. If the desire is big enough and we continue to dream actively, we can face this time as the greatest adventure ever, in which we bundle the Love that we essentially are together to give it shape through trial and error.

In my childlike innocence, I regularly ask somebody about their roots. Not always this is appreciated. This time I felt not only his pain, I also recognized mine and openly I shared my feelings. By doing this, I was not only healing this part in myself, I gave him also the opportunity to recognize and to heal his own past.

Unity in diversity

A black person will never become a white one and being on time is a problem for many. Therefore, we can learn something from them and they can learn something from us. None of us is any better. No longer I will accept this nonsense, like I will never will accept the 1.5 meter distance and the mask. It is not natural and sick making. If you do not pay in the bus, you are not a rainbow-rider, you will be still a black rider (dutch expression) and our tradition of black Piet can stay. Everyone can decide by himself or herself whether you want to be annoyed by that or not.

Being a victim is a choice

Stopping blaming others is the hardest thing there is, but it will set you free. You give up your victim role, your false sense of security. True spirituality is in every way taking responsibility for your own being and your life. I do not only mean our behavior towards each other, but towards every living being. We have to find back the respect that we lost for the feminine aspect in every person, for our society and for our beloved earth mother. It means that we have to accept that peace, security, equality and so on do not exist on the material level.

True life

In essence, we are all born naked and all the same. If you dare to feel this deeply within, you lose the need to point your finger at anyone. No one knows the other’s blueprint. The outside may look beautiful, but it says nothing about the inside.

When we stop bringing up the past, we can join hands and connect our hearts.  Ultimately, we can stand together for the most precious thing we can acquire here on earth: Brotherhood and sisterhood. True Life can only unfold in Freedom. True Love is unity in diversity and it colors the world a bit more beautiful…

Om Shanti – Let us be in Peace
– July 7, 2020

A new world

The biggest lie ever

This morning when I woke up, I knew it is time for the next step. I cannot life with the biggest lie ever and act if I agree with the 1,5 meter policy.

I feel compassion for all people on the top who are playing with us, because we have given our power away so they can easily enslave us. We are still following them like sheep, as we always did…

Yes, they are very clever. Everything is perfect organized. When I heard about this coronavirus, I was still in Greece. The situation with the refugees was more inhuman than ever. I knew immediately that they had found a perfect excuse to hide everything we are not allowed to know and not only about the shameful way we are going around with our refugees.

Since 11th of September 2001, they have systematically injected us with fear.

We got seperated from the miracle we call God, Love or Universe. We forgot that we are more than this physical body. We forgot our Oneness. We started to hate each other.

We were ready to be brainwashed on even a much higher scale. They have been working on it for years and in just a few weeks, they took control over the entire world and closed the borders. They started another war…

They had already planted seeds in our heads and started to spread lies around a virus that should kill millions of people. They brainwashed us 24 hours a day. We started to believe it and without any protest, we accepted the rules.

My body is my responsibility. It is the temple of my soul. I have to embrace it with love and to feed it with nourishing food and positive thoughts. We have given it all away. We trust that doctors will repair our bodies and the government is saving us from disaster.

We gave away our freedom for the illusion of more security. We are so afraid to die that we do not know what it is to be fully alive. Life is just an everyday risk. Living, really being alive is surrender yourself to the flow without controlling anything. Not my will but Thy.

The pharmaceutic industry has killed millions of young people in Africa and India by trying out their medicines and vaccines. Now we dragged them all in the drama created by our greediness. Millions are locked up and will be dying from hunger. Still we are only worried about our own health.

We are so afraid of dying. Believe me; being born means automatically that we will die. How we color the time in between is up to us and nobody else. The coronavirus is not changing this.

What is different that we are being brainwashed by following the mainstream media day and night and believe that what they show us is real. I challenge you to search behind the surface and discover your own true. Of course, it can be shocking. However, when you know where you really have to be afraid of, there is nothing to be afraid of anymore. You start to feel compassion for all of those who are playing with us. You start to realize that they are victims too. We have given them their power…

We can choose to stay asleep or we can wake up in our infinite power. In this case, we feel connected with everyone and everything. There is no difference between you and me. We are all brothers and sisters.

The only reason we are here for a while is to get to know our true Nature and to polishing ourselves by experiencing life at the fullest.

The real crime is that what is behind all of this. The real crime is the new normal. The 1,5 meter distance, the masks, and all the lies we started to believe.

The real crime is that we lock ourselves, isolate our elders and separate our children. That we take away everything what is life giving and makes us real Human Beings. The real crime is that we started to sow hate instead of love.

Masuru Emoto from Japan discovered that even water is reacting on our thoughts of love of hate. When we send love into the world, we will never misuse the power of nature and everyone and everything will flower in abundance. When we send fear and hate into the world everything will die and we create shortage.

The real disaster is not that we die of corona but that we seem to have forgotten who we really are. That we do not accept that life is just a short moment between being born and dying. How we fill it in is up to us.

You cannot tell me that you are happy with this situation. You cannot tell me that you are proud to leave behind a world like this to the next generations.

The only thing we have to change is our way of thinking. If we take back our responsibility, we experience life as a miracle and we feel grateful for every moment. Living in fear is killing all life and poisoning everything we eat. Living with a loving and open heart means automatically we are living in abundance and care for our mother earth and her inhabitants. No longer we think in limitations. There is abundance for everyone. When we wake up we take back our power. It will be the end of our oppressing. It is the beginning of a new world, a new normal. Not a world with distance or lock downs but discover, to learn, to grow, to love, to touch, to create, to pray, to meditate, to dance, to laugh and to live LIFE at the fullest.

It is up to you. Are you choosing to be a coward or are you proud enough to take responsibility and to stay up in your full glory. The time is ready. By doing this, you are not only supporting your true Self but encouraging everyone else to do the same.

Om Shanti,